Dreams of murdering my little brother?
good gods Today has been so scary and its only 9:23am
It started out with but another death dream, and once again a family member..but this time it was the one person I’m really close to…my 10 year old low functioning autistic brother I practically raised him. an
OK so the dream makes more sense of I explain something real quick.
When my mother, step-father, brother, and myself lived in sandpoint Idaho we were living in a 2 bed(not bed room! literally bed!) 1 bath hotel room for a year. My brother is low functioning autistic and I wasn’t in any counseling for my anger. So anyways most the time Trey(my brother) would **** me off so much that i would….I would beat him up. there were days he wore layers of clothes, scared that someone would see the scratch up his arms and back. I’M SO SORRY I DID THIS TO HIM SO PLEASE DON’T LEAVE COMMENTS SAYING I WAS A BAD SISTER!
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This is my dream(which felt very real by the way):
the sun had seemed to die in this parallel universe, everything was foggy and I could hear Trey yelling
“SISSY STOP! I LOVE YOU! PLEASE! I WILL BEHAVE!YOUR HURTING ME!”
“I raised you while daddy was out with friends and mom was working! I’m not going to let you disrespect me!” I snarled back.
Looking at Trey he had a black eye and his once perfectly tanned Native American skin had turned extremely pale.
A scream of despair escaped Trey’s mouth, and he cried “I LOVE YOU!”
but it was to late one more hit…that’s all it took…one hit and he fell to the floor color leaving his caramel brown eyes.
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I awoke sweating and about ready to cry…good god! i dunno what i was thinking, I love trey so much and i could never hurt him that badly!!
and yes im in counseling and no longer am abusive. I’m actually rather tranquil now ^^
Asked by:gypsy
might mean that he won’t be living for long
Okay, You Having This Night mear Shows Tht Your Scared To Hurt Your Brother Again Which is A Good Sign. You Can’t Help What You Dream, Tht’s Why In A situation Like This, We Would Call This Occurance A Night Mear.
&& Wht Exactly Do You Mean, “Tht Badly”
However I Still Think Tht You Sincerly Need Help If You Beat Up Your Little Brother, Cause One Of These Days Your Gonna Go To Beat Him Up, And He’s Gonna Be Grown, And He’s Gonna Win.
maybe you have some issues that need to be dealt with immediately and also you should see someone about that anger issue of yours.